One of Those Weeks

I'm just having one of those weeks. This post is going to be kind of hodge-podge....

Blogging & communication just isn't at the forefront of my mind. I apologize to those who are used to my daily posts like Meal Planning Mondays or Things I Like Tuesdays. Just not happening this week. And I'm sure you can understand.

I just don't feel right this week.

My Fibro is flaring. My fatigue is crushing. My dizziness is awful. My headaches are daily and intense. My sinuses/allergies are horrendous. {And I know I'm not alone; I've heard a lot of people lately talking about headaches and sinus problems who don't usually have them, and people getting sick who rarely get sick.... I really believe something is up with the air quality or weather patterns, but still, it's not fun! I truly haven't fully recovered from the bad cold I caught over a month ago. Ughh. Doctor's visit coming up!}

I feel like I've been run over by a freight train.

Ohhhhh how I long to be normal.

I'm struggling this week.


Would you pray for me? It'll be okay, I know I'm okay, God is my strength and shield.

This weekend we spent a ton of time cleaning, reorganizing things, dusting, vacuuming behind weird spots, moving around decorations since I was getting bored with the way some of it was, putting all the lovely family Christmas pictures we got up in frames and on the fridge, and getting all of our Christmas stuff put back away for the next year! It was tiring, but thankfully during most of it God gave me some supernatural energy to accomplish everything without feeling overly exhausted. I'm feeling it more yesterday & today than expected {I thought I was doing fine, listening to my body, resting when I needed to, but also getting very easily bored if I sat still too long! - but alas, my body has been a little mad at me yesterday & today *sigh*}. Oh well, I'm still very happy with the way the weekend went!

But now it's a strain to do anything, and yet also a joy to do everything that I can do. I'm fighting a roller coaster of emotions, exhaustion, and stress, but in a joyful kind of way. Sort of. I do have some deep, dark, rough moments too.

I know I have so many things to be thankful for, and I am, but I'm also struggling through some things. Our pastor brought a really powerful sermon this past weekend about being authentic, and I'm searching my soul a lot these days to see what in my life needs to change.

And a lot does. A lot.

I want to grow. I want to be sincere. I want to be genuine. I want to be authentic.

I want everything in my life to be evidence of Christ within me.

I have a long way to go.