First things first... today's been a tough day physically. I pushed myself a bit too hard around the office today, getting things accomplished that took more moving, pending, and lifting than usual. But it was time to get it done and it felt good! I'm not even regretting it now... just dealing with extra pain that makes it hard to do much this evening. And this bitterly cold weather aggravates my fibro beyond normal as well. So, it's been a tricky day, but with God's strength I'm managing to hang in there.
Okay, on to the main thing I've been thinking about that I wanted to share with you. You're aware I've been searching and have found a lot of new blogs that I'm really enjoying or have been intrigued by. I love some of them more than others just because of my personal interests. But as I've spent more time looking at more blogs, I can't help but wonder a little bit where I fit in. I'm not on Twitter. I don't have an Etsy shop. I don't make homemade stuff. I'm not domestic. I'm not a mom. I'm not super creative. I'm not incredibly witty. I can't seem to translate my humorous side to blog postings (seems to only really come across correctly face-to-face... ya know?). And while I think of tons of things to say in my head, by the time I get to writing it up... my brain has turned to mush. Every. stinking. time. Ughhhhh. They refer to it as "fibro fog". I hate it. I grew up wanting to be a writer. I love to write. But when exactly did my brain start to disappear? It's like you know the info is there... you're searching your brain for it... you're trying so hard to concentrate... but concentrating seems to only make it worse... and ta da, you write something relatively lame and uncertain. All the while you're sure your few readers are barely skimming what you're saying and rolling their eyes at just how lame you sound. ::sigh::
But, then, alas... you hear from your lovely aunt that, surprise, she's been keeping up with your blog fairly regularly and enjoys it. Then later that same day you hear from you wonderful sister-in-law in far off Tennessee that, surprise, she's keeping up with your blog regularly and gives you bunches of encouragement, support, and advice, which you badly needed on a dark and lonely evening.
AWESOME. GOD IS A_W_E_S_O_M_E! He knew just what I needed and when I needed it. Thank you Aunt Robin and Jennie!! I so appreciate you contacting me today! :)
So I don't have anything radical to say... I'm still finding exactly what I want to do and say on this blog because I find so much inspiration from so many other blogs and feel if I do it my way it's going to turn out really lame. Thank you for joining me in this adventure.
And in my search to find my place to fit in, I just wanted to say thank you to my dear Sandy at Helpings of Hope, where she is the only person I know of who links back to my blog. Since so much of blogging is spread via word of mouth (i.e. links on other blogs, or you posting on other people's blogs), I just wanted to say thanks to Sandy for her support! Thank you!!
I hope that in some way I'm able to help and inspire others out there, whether they have Fibro, an eating disorder, any other chronic illness, are friends or family wanting to keep up with me, or people interested in just learning more about other people... whether I ever even know that you are out there lurking or not, I wanted to say thanks. Thank you for exploring my site, checking out the other links, and if you get a chance, please do leave me a comment.