Thursday, September 4, 2008

Lyrica Adventure, I'm Done

Lyrica ended up not working out for me. It's frustrating because it's a medicine specific to help Fibromyalgia. But I was on a low dose because the higher dose (when it does the best work) made me too drowsy to live my life. Last night was my last pill of Lyrica. I'm feeling a little discouraged and frightened. I'm not sure where to go from here and my rheumatologist is not very helpful - another discouraging point.
There's a Fibro treatment place that I'd been hoping to get in touch with soon to see if they could help. Went back to their website and it's gone. Tried to call with the phone number I had and it's disconnected.
I feel hopeless, dejected, discouraged, scared, frustrated, upset, bitter, and sad today. But I know I can push through this because ultimately my hope is in the Lord. I have a future home in Heaven awaiting me where I will be perfect and spend eternity praising God for his marvelous works.
I don't know why I'm going through this, but I know that really doesn't matter. I want to let my pride fall down and allow God to fully do his work in and through me, whatever that may be.
Lord, today I am struggling. But I know you are my mighty King. You are my lord of Lords. You are my everything. Please help me to stay focused on you so that my challenges do not distract me from fulfilling your will for my life. You have called me to do something important and I want to be ready and willing to take on that task, without grumbling and without fear. I pray that the Holy Spirit would supernaturally energize me to push beyond these obstacles and keep pressing forward. I do not want to throw in the towel, but I admit to feeling defeated and I ask for your forgiveness. I pray for guidance, wisdom, and discernment in the next steps I need to take (whatever those may be, I pray you'll show me in your time not mine) and that I will step back and trust you for all my needs. In Jesus name I pray, Amen!

2 comments:

Julie V. said...

Amen to that sister!!

Thanks for sharing your heart and faith with us! I'll be praying for you.

Anonymous said...

I'm sorry that the Lyrica has not helped you. It has given me some relief but is definitely not a cure all. With all the medications that I am taking (14 in all), one thing is for sure... Medications help your body control your medical problems but they do not cure your illness. Your body and its functions must cure the disease but in many cases it cannot. Medicine can only keep you functioning. The Lord is your strength and your hope; also, a healthy diet and lifestyle will give your body the tools you need to fight. Listen to your body. Do what you can in the daily strength God has given you and rest when you need to rest.
Fibromyalgia struck me after a car accident in 1992. In 2005 I was diagnosed with diabetes and metabolic syndrome (high blood pressure, high cholesterol, diabetes). In 2006 I found out I had suffered a silent heart attack that damaged my heart and had to have an angioplasty, to put a stent in my heart and open up a clogged artery. Another clogged artey was left alone as the doctor said it was unsafe to try and open it and the stented artery would help bring blood to that damaged area of my heart.
Day to day I praise God for the opportunity to live and serve Him one more day. I am open to the Holy Spirit in directing me to do God's will in my life and in the life of others. I take my meds, keep up with my doctors, eat and live healthy, get the rest I need, and pray and look for better ways to help my body. God knows your needs. Trust in Him and look past the pain and frustration that would take over your life. The devil would like nothing better than to stop your witness and work for the Lord. Don't let your emotions and feelings of despair rule you. Let go and let God...
Continue to run the race...
He will give you the strength and show you the way; just ask Him...
Love in Christ Jesus, Kathy R