Saturday, June 12, 2010

Struggling

Really struggling through some things.

Need a break.

Cannot wait for our vacation week after next.

For today, just vegging. Processing. Praying. Crying.

Sobbed so hard last night on my drive home from a party that I was nearly choking.

Struggling.

Depressed.

Crying.

Making me physically ill.

Wanting to hide in a hole.

Wishing I could redo yesterday.

Today I am in a funk.

Today I don't like myself.

Today I hate Fibromyalgia.

Today I hate being a girl.

3 comments:

Carol said...

Oh, dear Rochelle. I understand... You will be in my thoughts and prayers the rest of the day. Try hard not to beat yourself up, you don't deserve what you are telling yourself. You are a child of God created in His image... rejoice, my friend.

Vikki G said...

Rochelle,
I am so very sorry that you are feeling this way~ Remember that the disease is not who you are...this is something that many of us with chronic illnesses struggle with~ Please know that you are a daughter of the King Most High and He loves you for who you are...and where you are in life! Lord I pray for strength for Rochelle and a peace in knowing that she is loved and appreciated and that You are holding her in Your Hands!
Blessings,
Vikki

Sarakastic said...

Oh I'm so sorry you're going through this but you're a strong person and you can do it! Just get some rest and wait it out and maybe do somethign really nice for yourself.