Monday, May 23, 2011

Hypochondriac with Fibromyalgia

I spent yesterday afternoon with my husband's family, but specifically with my wonderful sister-in-law and dear friend Becca. And the two little kids, Natalie who is almost 3, and Ashdyn who is 18 months.

It was a lot of fun, but when I walked in the door back home I realized just how much of a toll the bending, lifting, and playing with the kids took on my body. Which is fine, it was totally worth it, but still....

When I got home, I took a bubble bath and spent some time with the Lord, reading The Greener Grass Conspiracy, and praying.

It's always in those still, quiet moments that you can most hear God speaking to you.

Speak to me he most definitely did.

And in the midst of looking out the window and seeing the lightning flash across the sky as I sat in the tub {this would totally freak my mom out - we were never allowed in the bath/shower growing up if there was a storm, but I assume that's because we were in an old farmhouse with a tin roof... if it really should be a cause for concern, I'm not sure I 
wanna know lol, cuz it was beautiful!}, 
God quietly told me why this hypochondriac was allowed to have Fibromyalgia. Something I hadn't distinctly heard from him before.

That Fibromyalgia is something that would not just cause me to fully depend on him, but that it would also help spare me from all those little freak-out moments when pain or health issues would surface. God allowed it for me to show & display to me his grace

Despite Fibro giving me moments of panic, wondering if the pain or symptom I'm feeling is Fibro-related or something else, I believe that my hypochondriac-ness would be more extreme without the Fibro to teach me some things about health. Things I never would have learned without it.  

And that my friends, is supernatural grace.

Utterly amazing that such a sinner as I would even remotely deserve one iota of his favor. I'm so thankful, both for the grace and for the understanding of it. Thank you Lord Jesus!!


blueviolet said...

I love that you felt what you needed and heard what you needed in that moment!

Future of Hope said...

And that, my friend, is why God's grace is so amazing.
What a blessing that He gave you such a blessed moment with Him.

Anonymous said...

Do you have FIBRO? What does it have to do with significant nerve damage to the L-5 disc in your back.I have suffered from back pain for 7 years,and I hate pain medication, But I also have a low tolerence to pain. Are the two ailments related in any way?

Rochelle said...

Anonymous, yes I have Fibro. I have no idea of your condition exactly or have that particular disc or of any relation between it and Fibro. I'm not sure that I can be much help. I have a lot of back pain, but the chiropractor x-rays I've had taken indicate that it's more of a typical American sloucher/editor-who-hunches-over-paperwork-daily kind of thing instead of necessarily related to discs or Fibro specifically. There's no real way to know for sure without further testing, but I don't deem it necessary. My pain medication isn't the best, but without it, I can't sleep. I'm sorry I can't be of more help. I'm definitely not an expert and still learning more every day about this stuff. I hope you find the info you are looking for somewhere out there. Check out my blogroll or Fibro websites pages at the top for more links on other places you can try. Many blessings to you!