Why don't people understand me?
Do they even really try?
I am trying to stay positive
Living life to the fullest that I can
Trusting in God's promises
Feeling frustrated and flustered
Wanting so badly close friendships
Close family
Close
Why is everyone so far away?
Why do I feel ousted?
Why do I feel hated
despite being so loved?
The flow of advice is overwhelming
I don't always know what to say
or what to do
I think I want to make it go away
but I'm not sure
I know it is meant for good
but it feels bad
I wish my life were normal
but then God wouldn't have this chance
to teach me so much
I want to disappear
I want to hide
Why can't I be treated normally?
Somedays I want it
Somedays I don't
But oh how great "normal"
sounds to my ears
God is love
I know he loves me
I know he wants the best for me
I know that's why I'm being tested
And I think I'm okay with that
But why me... why now God... why this?
I want to trust you more
I want to learn what I need to learn
So I don't have to learn it again
I feel alone... scared... confused...
but I know you know how that feels
and I know I'm in the palm of your mighty hands
For that I thank you
Thank you for loving me so
Thank you for molding me so
Thank you for understanding me when
the world is a dark and lonely place
The world is a dark and lonely place
2 comments:
You write as I feel most of the time...dark and lonely. Some days are better than others, but there are a few that stand out like you are having. I wish for you to feel loved and happy, not dark and lonely. Easier said than done, I know, but hang in there IT will get better. Each day I stand on the edge of a cliff and choose not to jump. It must be so that I can comfort others :)
Hang in there! You're really not alone.
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