Remember when I posted about having to head back to reality last Sunday night?
Well, little did I know that night my illness would escalate overnight and I wouldn't be able to head back to work all week! God, in his amazing grace and sovereignty, has used this time to remind me to be more thankful for everything I have and when I have it.
Now that I can't actually be at work, and am stuck at home just sitting in the recliner all week, watching movies, reading books, and finding other ways to rest... I actually miss being at work! I enjoyed maybe 2 days of it, despite being utterly miserable and coughing my lungs up practically. But now I'm at the point where I'm desperate for daily human interaction outside my house!!
It's really hard not to get depressed just being all cooped up inside for 7 days (with a few exceptions like church, a quick trip to the grocery store with hubby's help, and a trip to convenient care) ~ and that's just so far, I have 2 more days to go at least....
But God is good, and he's reminding me to keep my focus on him, and not to get discouraged. I'm actually missing living my life - work, commute, dealing with fibro, etc!! When I'm sick, the fibro flares up, but it also ends up in the background because my sickness comes to the foreground. So in retrospect, I should have been thanking God for the ability to return back to work (some others can't... have lost jobs, have lost the ability to work due to things like fibro, etc). God has used this time to show me just how much I really have to be thankful for and that I need not wallow in self-pity.
Thank you Lord for your goodness to us, even when we are sick, miserable, and starting to feel like a terrible person!