like i can't breathe
like someone took a million needles and pricked me all over my body
like i've been slamming myself into a brick wall
mind-numbingly blinding pain
i want to scream it hurts so bad
my back feels like i rolled it along a row of charcoal and knives
i chew gum to help numb my mind of the pain and distract me
i listen to music on my headphones at my desk to help dull the pain in my ears
ironic because too much gum or too much music makes both worse
my feet. ohhhh my feet. yowsers.
my left hip. my right toes. my joints. my muscles. my nerves. ugh.
thankful i can walk today. not sure how i'm doing any of this.
only by the grace of God go i