Saturday, March 20, 2010

Stream of Thoughts

Exhausted. Slept 12 hours last night. Still exhausted. Been so busy lately. Can't find any ounce of productivity today. In a funk. Worked really, really hard the past couple weeks and am still in an up-down-up-down with my weight. So confused and frustrated. Thought I was doing it mostly right. Huge changes in lifestyle. No big weight loss.


Please don't tell me it takes time... I've been working hard on it for 6 months. I should have seen more of a difference in this amount of time than I have. So now trying not to get overly discouraged. Didn't feel like posting a Losing It post. Just tired. Not doing well. Mad at myself. Have to try harder. Thought I was. Guess it's still not good enough.

Upset about some personal stuff. Fighting feeling like a failure. Babysitting right now. Really in love with this kiddo.

Can't believe just yesterday it was near 70s & sunny... today I awoke to low 30s and heavy snow. Welcome to the first day of Spring in Chicagoland!  

Not fishing for compliments or encouragement...just sharing a stream of thoughts. Hope you are all doing well! Don't worry, I'm sure I'll be out of my funk soon.


Sherrie Sisk said...

Hang in there, Rochelle. I share your weight-loss frustration. I've tried low-carb, no-carb, high-carb, vegetarian, no-fruit ... God, every permutation of every diet available, it seems. Finally, I gave up on that and just worked on eating low on the food chain as much as possible and reducing processed foods and calorie intake. I need to get back on the yoga and walking wagons, though! Big time. Sigh.

That whole "exercise brings the PAIN" thing also doesn't make it easy.

Rochelle said...

Thanks Sherrie! Always good to know someone else knows what we're going through. I hate that the exercise brings on the pain, but I do admit I feel energized and invigorated by it... ultimately helping the whole process. I can tell when I miss just one workout! It's amazing how acclimated our bodies can get if we just push through. The workouts have gotten easier and better. The food thing... well, I'm working on it. Baby steps, right? :)