More Mom Talk and "Where Is God?"

I wanted to explain a couple more things really quickly about the Mother's Day thing.... Despite what I said originally, I did force myself to go to church. I don't blame other ladies for not going on that day, but my heart was genuinely not right with God and I knew it. I needed to be at church, where he convicted me of this very thing, and a few other things. I got to be an encourager to other moms while there {and fought through hiding how I was feeling down; it was so freeing to express myself to others I loved}, got to hug and love on moms in my life, talked with several moms on the phone during the day, relaxed and hung out with hubby and had some really special time together, babysat last night for my friend Monica so she could get out and celebrate with her hubby, and I enjoyed so much being with my baby buddy Parker who is the closest thing I have to a kid of my own. And God really got ahold of me about some things this weekend.

So while I knew I needed not to feel sorry for myself, I still got choked up and cried while the other moms stood up and were prayed over during church. That is the moment I hate the most, and yet appreciate the most because I know it's special to the moms. And I know I wasn't the only one struggling through it. I tried to focus on the moms I know and how grateful I am to all of them. I tried to think of my single friends who want to be married and have kids. I don't want to take what I have for granted. I want to be a good friend, not someone who just says "woe is me; look at what I'm going through". I really want you guys to be able to use this in your own life and learn from my mistakes.

This is a place where I want to be real and transparent, let God's light shine through me, and use this as a place where us human being sinners can see God's grace and faithfulness in all things... whether we're complaining about our husbands or kids or life in general, talking about chronic illness, discussing ideas, sharing pictures, giving glory to God, or talking about our depression... It has truly been such a blessing to me to be able to share my life on this blog. Thank you for being here for me, listening to me, encouraging me, praying with me, loving on me, and helping to spread the word so more people can learn about Fibromyalgia.

I appreciate you all so much!!


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This old song, Where is God?, by Church of Rhythm always struck a cord with me. It has again today as I've faced a difficult afternoon and the late day shlump of getting depressed, tired, feeling frustrated, being rocked by physical pain, etc. Whether you are facing a major trial, a minor one, or just a difficult circumstance, I hope these words are an encouragement to you too.

Where Is God?:
You can listen to it on YouTube {video is a little cheesy; better for just listening to the lyrics}

He can't stand the fighting anymore
He goes to his room, he shuts the door
And somewhere a father and a mother talk about divorce again
She's been missing since last May
She would have turned 13 today
And somewhere a father and I say a prayer for his little girl

Where is God in all of this
Where is my faith in all of this
Where are the answers, to help me live through this

Maybe I'm a doubting Thomas
Maybe I've a skeptic's heart
If I can't believe that everything can be Jesus-talked away
And I know God is real
And I need Him more than I need any slogan
God be real to me, and heal this darkness in my faith


Where is God in all of this
Where is my faith in all of this
Where are the answers, to help me live through this

I may not understand, but there is God
I may feel alone, but I have God
I may not believe, but through it all He's still my God

There is God in all of this
There is my faith in all of this
There are the answers to help me live through this 

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And finally I leave you with a picture that is more delightful to me than words can fully express. Today I got to share lunch with my dear friends Monica and Sherah along with their little babes. They are all sooo precious to me, and it was especially dear to my heart to be able to share this time with them right after Mother's Day. These ladies rock my little world, and they are both such fabulous first-time moms, I have learned a TON from both of them, and I soaked in every moment I got to share with them.