...if even though a lot of you come here because I'm so positive all the time, this time you see my very real, down-in-the-dumps side?
...if I feel torn to shreds and frustrated with my faith?
...if I just want to crawl into a hole and hide?
...if today I just sulk?
...if I have to completely refrain myself from going off on a venting rampage here on my blog because I know it wouldn't be appropriate but am desperately wanting to use this as an outlet to freak out about all this crap I'm dealing with........
{not even sure that sentence made sense but I don't care}
After all, I'm only human.
I know this too will pass, I'll get over it, and all that jazz... but in this moment, I just want to endlessly cry and wish my life were different.
{except that ironically, I can't even cry, I'm just so numb at this point}
It's too much.
I'm really overwhelmed.
I'm trying to stay focused.
I'm leaning a lot on these words of a Superchick song:
I know you wanna quit, don't think you can get through it;
You've come too far to walk away, it's not gonna be today;
And no matter how you feel, it's what you do that matters;
This is your moment to be strong...
Today's your day, it's on!
Today's the day, so come on bring it on!
2 comments:
yes it is ok, you deserve all of those things, you don't have to be positive all the time, just be you
sometimes I feel the same pressure on my own blog to be positive but people also need to know the struggles
Oh, friend. Of course it is okay, and I hope and pray that things are looking up by now...
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