Tuesday, September 7, 2010

Is It Okay...

...if I'm not the positive one today?

...if even though a lot of you come here because I'm so positive all the time, this time you see my very real, down-in-the-dumps side?

...if I feel torn to shreds and frustrated with my faith?

...if I just want to crawl into a hole and hide?

...if today I just sulk?

...if I have to completely refrain myself from going off on a venting rampage here on my blog because I know it wouldn't be appropriate but am desperately wanting to use this as an outlet to freak out about all this crap I'm dealing with........
{not even sure that sentence made sense but I don't care}

After all, I'm only human.

I know this too will pass, I'll get over it, and all that jazz... but in this moment, I just want to endlessly cry and wish my life were different.
{except that ironically, I can't even cry, I'm just so numb at this point}

It's too much.

I'm really overwhelmed.

I'm trying to stay focused.

I'm leaning a lot on these words of a Superchick song:

I know you wanna quit, don't think you can get through it;

You've come too far to walk away, it's not gonna be today; 

And no matter how you feel, it's what you do that matters; 

This is your moment to be strong... 

Today's your day, it's on! 
Today's the day, so come on bring it on!


Sarakastic said...

yes it is ok, you deserve all of those things, you don't have to be positive all the time, just be you

sometimes I feel the same pressure on my own blog to be positive but people also need to know the struggles

Mary @ Giving Up On Perfect said...

Oh, friend. Of course it is okay, and I hope and pray that things are looking up by now...