Tuesday, June 16, 2009

A bit down today

I'm feeling a bit down today.
And really have for several days.

I'm exhausted.
Excruciating pain.
Shooting pain throughout my right side.
I move my right arm and nearly scream or collapse in pain.
Muscle spasms... heating pads... no energy... can't find my smile...
Shakes... confusion... fogginess... so much pain.

So much pressure at work.
So much to do at home.
No energy or strength for either.
Doing the best I can... only by the grace of God.
Went to my friend Pat's visitation tonight.
Fellowshiped with other loved ones from church.
Reflected... laughed... cried... hugged... rejoiced.
Left with a lump in my throat and an ache in my heart.

A good reminder to enjoy every moment...
everything that you have with your loved ones.
Soak in those precious times before they're gone.

I feel like my eyes sag down to my neck.... I am so tired.
I'm tempted to hide in my bed for a week.

I'll be okay.
Not to worry.
I'm just a bit down today.


The Queen and the Pea said...

I'm sorry for your loss Rochelle. I'm also sorry that you are having such a rough time. I've been in those times before and it can be so difficult to keep pressing forward. I will keep you in my prayers.

Vikki G said...

so sorry to hear of the pain that you are in...I pray that you can find some relief somehow.