Saturday, June 13, 2009

In Honor of my friend Pat

My eyes are filled with tears

red and puffy

Can't believe and yet can

that my friend Pat was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer

3 weeks to the day that she died (yesterday)

I found out about an hour ago

And I've hardly stopped crying since

I had a cold last week and didn't get to go see her

Now I'm really mad at myself

I miss her

I served alongside her for years at church

She trained me

I learned a lot from her

I hugged her 3 weeks ago tomorrow

And had no idea it'd be the last time I'd see her

That was one aggressive cancer

I should have known

I wish I'd done more

It just reminds me to take up every chance we get

to show love to those we love

She was such a sweet, lovely, godly woman

who had such a servant's heart

I got to greet her 3 weeks ago when she arrived at church

We hugged and hugged and cried

as she told me of the cancer

I can't believe she's gone

My heart hurts

And yet, I know pancreatic cancer

is often a death sentence

I prayed for healing, and the Lord chose to take her home

I know that's his will

I'm not questioning it

Just sad

I'm glad she's with Jesus

and no longer suffering

But I will really, really, really miss her

here on earth

But I look forward to seeing her again someday in Heaven

All my best to her family

And here's to you Pat

You will be dearly missed

1 comment:

Sherrie Sisk said...

Aw, Rochelle, my heart aches for you. Pancreatic cancer is one of the most aggressive nasty cancers ever, but knowing that does absolutely nothing to dull the pain caused by a friend's death. Your faith is a huge comfort to you, I know. I don't know what else to say, hon. I'm so very, very sorry.