Saturday, February 27, 2010

Losing It - Not Doing Too Hot

I didn't do very well my first week of the Losing It challenge. I honestly got extremely busy and even more or less forgot about it. I'm so sorry! I will work harder to make it happen this week.

I've always struggled with my weight, but never to a really serious degree until after we got married, I moved away from home, had a hard time adjusting to real life, missing my family, etc. I always saw myself as fat since middle school, but looking back now that makes me laugh. Oh to be that size again! Even though I wasn't a 2 or a 4 {I was a size 10 I think when I graduated high school}, I was much better than where I am now! So now I refer to those as my skinny days!

Oh how perspective changes us. I referenced this a little bit in an earlier post, see Roller Skating and Fibromyalgia.

Now I'm a size 24 {usually... I was just able to fit into a new pair of jeans in a size 22!! Woot!}. My ultimate goal is to get back down to a size 14 or weigh 160 pounds, where I was at when we got married. And even though I'd still technically be classified as overweight, I don't care. I know I'd be a lot healthier than where I am now and would love myself more at that size. I honestly can't even picture myself ever getting lower than that. So that is my goal for where I want to be in order to be in better shape and health to have a baby.

But I am failing miserably at it. Despite the intense workouts and extreme effort I've put into working out, the nutrition is extremely difficult for me. But even in the weeks where I was doing it right, my body was only leaning down, not really losing much weight.

I have a ways to go, but I must get there. And I have to do better than this past week.

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Christina T said...

I believe you can do this! Don't beat yourself up about this past week. I'm proud of you for doing this challenge and I will be praying for your success.

Mary @ Giving Up On Perfect said...

Hang in there, Rochelle. This is something I have repeatedly failed at my entire adult life. But I really believe we can both DO IT this time! Baby steps...right?! :)